my camera makes me sick. it once made me feel empowered… now it makes me feel like a pretentious little brat following the pack of brats back to the land of Fotoshopia. ugh…
it’s so dusty. sometimes i see things in a very Velveteen Rabbit-esque point of view. i imagine that my camera that sits on my bookshelf along with the dusty political rants mutters to the dusty bowling trophy that mutters to the dusty Mr. Potato head that mutters to the tattered bible of how much of a bitch i am for neglecting them. once held in such high regard, now reduced to filler. i feel that the camera is the eternal optimist, the trophy, the hateful realist constantly putting the camera down. like the Brave Little Toaster still filled with nostalgic wonderment of the “Master” my camera dreams that one day i’ll hold it again and embrace it and fill it with “art”. the trophy reminds it that i have a new digicam like all the cool pretentious art school brats. “who needs you now.” poor camera. i feel bad that the idea of taking my self seriously makes my stomach weak. the further away i stray from my high school dream the more i’m reminded how much i hate life. ugh… i’m ranting aren’t i?



